Wednesday, February 28, 2007

hahaha this photos were taken like last year! during yf's birthday.

Tuesday, February 27, 2007

uberrr stressed now.

RAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

*breathes in, breathes out*


yes yes our birks are here already! it's been a long and anxiety-filled 3 weeks haha. the hilarious part was when angela and i decided to write an email to confirm our orders because we didnt receive any verification email upon ordering. hahaha it was really hilarious trying to appear formal. but they addressed me as MRS TEO. like, hello?!?!?!?!? -__-

the night when yf stayed over was went all hell break loose. because of this ban mian who's apparently interested in angela... ahahha. even at 12plus am we were laughing out asses off at 1000 decibels. we've been labelled as noise pollutanst recently. boo. oh yes and i'm quite amused at how crappy and humorous david can be. in the past, this someone used to talk bad about david. hence the not-so-good impression implanted in my mind. why was i influenced and swayed so easily. /shakes head. guess i was too... aiyah never mind. it's over.

ah yes lately there's been this hogwash about the guy's toilet in hall 15. someone couldn't tolerate the behaviour of this chinese national while using the toilet, so he started a blog about it. amazingly it's spreaded to quite a number of halls already. and yesterday i realised the joker's actually my friend -.- never knew i'd know someone like him. haha. and if there're any pranks being played like eggs throwing or meshing mango into the shower form bottle, it's gotta be him. hahahaha.

ahh this entry is so random and nonsensical.

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you

Monday, February 26, 2007

haha you people should really read uncle's blog @ http://weluvbigbeats.blogspot.com/

so deprived of sleep.
i need to be on mugging mode real soon else i'll die terribly.

and i'm amazed at my crapping ability. all my assignments are basically rubbish. bless me please.

3days of steamboat and i'm freaked out.









take me along with you, to somewhere i belong.

Sunday, February 25, 2007

Friday, February 23, 2007

yayness the term break is here once again! but i've 3 midterm tests next week. boo~ time really flies... haha. i ought to stop skipping lectures. oh manz. we got a B for our science essay! and an A for our peer review! whahaha totally caught me by surprise after the "battle" we'd with her.

i'm really so tired but i'm having trouble sleeping. shucks.

why do we still do things despite knowing that it'll hurt ourselves eventually?
why is it that 1 such person has the ability to make us smile and cry?
why do we always want things that are either too far away from us or just impossible to get?
why is it always so hard to control our emotions?
why are we thinking so much when it could all be in vain?
why are we doing so much when in the end it could mean nothing?
why are there so many whys, so many ifs, so many doubts?

:(

Thursday, February 22, 2007

this is damn cute! drawn by alfifi. hahaha


what happened when i tried to do integration at my grandma's house. in case you're wondering, im not mugger!

from this...



to this...

Wednesday, February 21, 2007

sometimes i wonder what i'm actually thinking, what i'm actually hoping for, what i'm actually looking forward to. why am i getting troubled over something so trivial? why am i so affected?

sighhh okay that aside. so, yes i had my fair share of laughter and fun at ah ma's place this new year. but it was also one of the most upsetting year altogether, having to swallow all the damn tears. my grandmother's condition isn't as promising as i thought it would be. i felt like shit when i saw her tearing, because i know she's upset about her current condition. thankfully everyone's still taking good care of her. yes i know all lives come to an end. but i honestly have no idea how to accept it. they wanna bring her over to singapore next weekend... and my parents want to visit her in may. they don't say it but i know what's exactly on their mind! sigh. and my uncle, i know my mum and aunt are shouldering all the pain. why does it have to happen?!

there's so many things that can't be said.
save me.

tell me the things that i can believe in.
'cuz i'm sick of wishing for the impossible.

unspoken pain~

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Lost Without You - Delta Goodrem

I know I can be a little stubborn sometimes
You might say, a little righteous and too proud
I just want to find a way to compromise
Cos I believe that we could work things out

I thought I had all the answers never giving in
But baby since you've gone
I admit that I was wrong

All I know is I'm lost without you, I'm not gonna lie
How am I going to be strong without you, I need you by my side
If we ever say we'll never be together and we ended with goodbye
Don't know what I'd do?

I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way, but all I know is I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day
I'm lost without you

How am I ever gonna get rid of these blues
Baby I'm so lonely all the time
Everywhere I go I get so confused
You're the only thing that's on my mind

Oh my bed’s so cold at night and I miss you more each day
Only you can make it right no I'm not too proud to say
If I could only hold you now and make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears from running down my face





it's all so disguised.
there's actually more than truth in what i say.
but you're not listening.
and i'm dying inside.

Monday, February 19, 2007

there's so many things that i wanna do; there's so much things that i wanna say.
but they can only be suppressed deep within.
so torn.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

You gotta be out there
You gotta be somewhere
Wherever you are
I'm waiting
'Cause there are these nights when
I sing myself to sleep
And I'm hopin' my dreams
Bring you close to me
Are you listening?

Hear me
I'm cryin' out
I'm ready now
Turn my world upside down
Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me

I used to be scared of
Letting someone in
But it gets so lonely
Being on my own
No one to talk to
And no one to hold me
I'm not always strong
Oh, I need you here
Are you listening?

I'm restless and wild
I fall, but I try
I need someone to understand
Can you hear me?
I'm lost in my thoughts
And baby I've fought
For all that I've got
Can you hear me?

Find me
I'm lost inside the crowd
It's getting loud
I need you to see
I'm screaming for you to please
Hear me

Friday, February 16, 2007

happy chinese new year to all!

receive lots of ang baos and share with me ok :) happy gaining weight people! hehheh! =)

mr stingray, this is especially dedicated to you! hahaha see how nice i'm to you! so you must get me those nian gaos also! :D

we all have been and will be hurt by others in one way or another. i know it's hard to get by but please don't make things difficult for yourself. it's ok to cry, it's ok to be down, it's ok to rant but at the end of the day, please remember that your friends care and want you to be happy. there's always a little sadness in everyone of us but life goes on right... so why not live it happily? yes it's always easier said than done but please try ok? :) it's not her fault and definitely not yours. but that's how life works around sometimes, doesnt it? trust me, eventually, there'll be a rainbow at the other side. meanwhile, take losta care, gain losta weight, collect losta ang baos and treat yourself better! jiayou :)

ah yes going to my grandma's house tomorrow! sigh she's just discharged from the hospital due to a mild stroke last week. really hope all's well. anyway will be back on tuesday... still pondering if i should skip the 6 gruelling hours of lectures on wednesday hahaha. so yes miss me while i'm gone! i'll miss you people! /flying kisses. go catch em! hahaha.

deep down somewhere, it's broken.
because there's so much to be said; but there's so much that cant be said.
sigh.

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

ahhhhh cannot stand it already. it's like apart from having to understand and digest those chim chim info during lectures, we also have to figure out what the lecturer is talking about as in, literally! ok that aside, now we even have to figure out what they are writing about! its like... they scribble and it eventually becomes one big black patch! grrrrrr. what makes it worst is that they are always in their own world. rahhhhhhhh!

haha okay i shall stop ranting! anyway ashton will be back tomorrow! hehheh gonna hear all bout his training in india =)

Saturday, February 10, 2007

itchy fingers. went to rumble through the past chat logs of marcus and i. haha it was quite funny looking through them and reminiscing the emotions then, of how nonchalant i appeared but deep down i really cared. i was actually smiling but there was a tinge of sadness. we meant so much to each other back then. yet now we hardly even talk let alone care about each other. and he's happily with someone new. the past that meant so much, it's all gone just like that. hopefully he's happy now. i still miss those times but i've no intention of getting him back. the memories are really sweet and that's the way it should be.

Friday, February 09, 2007

yaaahoooo the weekend's almost here again! :D this week seems to swift pass so quickly! haha. been kinda super deprived of sleep for the past few days. on tuesday i met wj again and he sent me back only like 2+am! then for some weird reasons i slept at 3am yesterdy night and had to drag myself up at 830am this morning! and here i am writing this crap when i've 830 lessons tomorrow. kill me!

ahh anyway i'm feeling so uneasy now because my eyes are so sore. i rubbed them without washing my hands after touching my hall cat. shucks. arghhhh.

was talking to ah seng and wj bout how morbid our society is. here we are not having to fret about having our needs met yet getting distressed over desires that we cannot attain and perpetually hoping that life could get better without realizing how fortunate we already are. have you all ever wondered about the people suffering elsewhere? about having troubles to get their stomachs filled? that innocent beings like kids are contracted with AIDS? even in singapore, there're people here trying to make a living by selling tissue papers desperately when most people their age are already enjoying their retired lives and accompanying their grandchildren. its also a common sight to see these old people rummaging for empty drink cans in the dustbins oblivious to everything around them.

life's really so unfair but there's nothing we could do about it. yes we can all help, but are we really doing so? and no, i'm not talking about things like donating stuff or money. but the least we could do is purchase the tissues when they approach you. it's just a few cents or the most 2 bucks to you . but to them, it could probably mean a meal for their kids who're starving. it's always heart-breaking witnessing all these. like what ah seng has said "One same place, two different people. One same nation, two different worlds. One pitiful society. "

happened to chance upon this girl's profile... and found out that her boyfriend had already passed away. we can never comprehend how this girl is feeling. yes, utterly melancholic, despaired, grievous etc. but at times like this, the sadness is way beyond something that can be penned down or described. so people, please cherish.

feeling emo and all now apparently and seems like i've caught the flu bug again. rahhhhhh.

they said, i look so happy and am always smiling on the outside.
that's what i'm trying to put across.
no matter how upset you are, life goes on.
so live life to the fullest.
then again, a smiling face doesn't mean a smiling heart.

Sunday, February 04, 2007

i'm amazed at how fast people change.
from the way they behave, to the way they react, to the things they say.
not that i actually care, but i'm just highly amused at some things.
so tell me, who or what is here to stay?
whatever~

i'm so sick of all these ongoing things.
i'm living life aimlessly.
tell me the things that i can believe in...

so the past was probably just a lie to you.


感觉梦醒着
感觉心痛着
感觉你不在了
谁来证明爱是存在的

我们被困着
被过去骗着
这一切都不一样世界怎么了

难道说选择了忘记
而解放了自己
是否就拥有挑战爱情的勇气

当时光交缠在一起
成说不清的思绪
我却只要那段最美的 回忆

Memory 浩荡如空气
明知你在那里
却有难以跨越的距离
我们在放弃 涂白了记忆
以为就可以伪装无邪的美丽

Saturday, February 03, 2007

2moro's concert was great! it lasted slightly more than an hour and the twins were so comical and cute. awwww. hahahah. was supposed to jog with wj last night... but we postponed it to this morning. oh boy, it's been so long since i've woken up at 6am for jogging.

there's this guy in my course who's honestly thinking wayyyyy to much lah huh. getting disturbed over absolutely nothing. wake up lah!

Everything would come to an end eventually.
Daniel's friend passed away 2 days ago in an accident.
He was 23.

To let go isn't to forget, not to think about, or ignore.
It doesn't leave feelings of anger, jealousy, or regret.
Letting go isn't about winning or losing.
It's not about pride and it's not about how you appear, and it's not obsessing or dwelling on the past.
Letting go isn't blocking memories or thinking sad thoughts, and doesn't leave emptiness, hurt, or sadness.
It's not about giving in or giving up.
Letting go isn't about loss and it's not about defeat.

To let go is to cherish the memories, but to overcome and move on.
It is having an open mind confidence in the future.
Letting go is learning and experiencing and growing.
To let go is to be thankful for the experiences that made you laugh, made you cry, and made you grow.
It's about all that you have, all that you had, and all that you will soon gain.
Letting go is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving.
Letting go is growing up.
It is realizing that the heart can sometimes be the most potent remedy.
To let go is to open a door, and to clear a path and set yourself free.

Friday, February 02, 2007

ADEBAO!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
see ya soon :D /hugs.

Thursday, February 01, 2007

i don't like this feeling of having to withdraw because i know it's futile.
i don't like being apprehensive about something so trivial.
i don't like having to deceive myself because i'm aware that i don't have the courage to face how i'm really feeling.
i don't like this at all.


boo. it's been a strenuous week with hall supper and having to take orders for bread and milk. not forgetting the never-ending schoolwork. roar.

finally made it clear with him and it nearly pissed the hell outta me because i've never seen anyone so persistent and in a way, stubborn. thankfully it's all over.

we finally completed our first draft for the essay but apparently our tutor says it's not acceptable. i'm just being polite here by calling her "our tutor" because frankly speaking she's a real bitch. it's fine if her teaching is atrocious. it's fine if she gives nothing but useless comments. it's fine if she doesn't give us constructive suggestions. it's fine if she tells us that our topic is too narrow and tells the other group 0.01 second later that our topic is too broad. it's fine if she appeared impatient and wanted to rush off to have coffee with her colleagues when we asked her about our essay. but i totally can't understand why she doesn't allow us to write our essay on historical development of mathematics. yeah this topic itself sounds goofy and all but it's not like we have a choice! we were given 3 topics and this is one of them! if we are not allowed to do then why the heck is it given! and it's not like we just finished it up haphazardly. how can she say things like we havent added any value to our essay and "what have you all done?" i wanna ask her "what have YOU done for us?!" aiyo. what on earth does this woman want...

Xu Wei Lun, a taiwanese actress passed away on monday. it was abrupt and totally unexpectable. not like life's predictable but we often have the mentality that such unfortunate things wouldnt befall us that soon. i'm positive everyone knows that we ought to treasure what we've right now but are we really doing so? then again, no matter how much we hold dear of certain stuff, regrets are inevitable. oh well.

anyway i'm going to 2moro's concert tomorrow. hahaha. i happened to walk pass the booth when they were giving out the tickets and since the queue was so short, we joined in.

because some things don't matter anymore.
because some things aren't yours to begin with.

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Everytime your love is near
And every time I'm filled with fear
Cuz every time I see your face
Could it be that this will be the one that lasts?
The fear does start to erase every time
Oh could it be that this will be the one that lasts
For all my times

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